Purpose driven uh what??

Okay I'll admit it I hide People on fb that are on a path in life....People that know what and where they are going in life...people that have completed said path...sometimes even happy people just because.. And a few types of other people. I feel like Moses and not the Veggie tales Version for the past pretty much my whole adult life. So yes I get jealous of the people with "paths" sometimes.... Well maybe just a little lol. What is my said path jesus?!? I feel like I have asked and asked and the Jesus eight ball says ask again later. It's later I'm almost 30 well not quite but close enough. I have brought 4 alright looking kids into the world and now that I have my girl and my even number now what? I am not sure if it's the surgery that I'm afraid of or giving up the one thing that I know I'm pretty good at. What's next Jesus? Uh what still cant hear you....